The HEART of a LIONESS.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The HEART of a LIONESS.

JOHN31

15/02/2009 13:01

Dear John

I just had what I thought was the opposite experience of the Nothingness. But it seems it was the opposite feeling of the Ultimate Good, namely the Ultimate Bad. But if you go and look at JOHN30 (which is describing my experience as I was having it right at that moment), you will see that in the first place, there was hope. Hope that nobody else ever have to go through this experience again. But hope was there hope. Then there was some kind of love. As in some way it must be some kind of love to hope for this feeling to never be the experience of anybody else ever again. And in it all there must have been faith – as I was talking to God in order to bring forth the Hope and Love. So this makes of this experience of the Ultimate Bad feeling, there still stay something good. Never is good lost. The good is always there. So even the Ultimate Bad, is Good – or linked to Good. That brings into Balance, by way of experiencing it myself, the feeling of Ultimate Bad is Good. So therefore there is only good, even in the feeling of Ultimate Bad. So in the experience of these human feelings, we have that the experience of the Ultimate Bad holds forth the Good in itself and therefore bring this feeling into Balance, into the Point of Balance, namely the Point [Good;Good], as even in the experience of the Ultimate Bad, there was Good. And from Good we have that the experience of Good, the Ultimate thereof, is in the Nothingness eventually. So this brings the Point [Good;Good], to The Point of Balance, namely the Point [0;0], where 0 is Nothing. This also apply on the Ultimate Negative, also end up in something positive or then, the [positive;positive], where this is linked to [good;good] and therefore bringing the Ultimate Negative and Positive into the Balance Point, namely the Point [0;0].

But here is the words as I was in that moment of experiencing the Ultimate Bad!

JOHN30

(The Holy Grail)
15/02/2009 12:12Pm

I am experiencing at this moment the Ultimate experience of Pain you can experience. For the sake of all the individuals involved that was part of this process to lead to this, I will not tell who they are and what happened.

All I can say is that: After I have been shot, I was in the Ultimate of Good. The part where there is nothing but Peace and Harmony.

But I descended again from there, a piece was torn from there and put into my body again and I was given life again. Now I am stuck and feel so stuck. No way out – worse than a trapped animal as you cannot even surrender to death, although you want to. You are a human being but although between a lot of people, you are forsaken. You carry only but guilt. You carry only but pain. You carry only that you are human, but that you cannot even take your own miserable life as God would send someone to get you or not let you die. So you must stay here on this, in this, lowest plane. The descend of Ishtar.

It is of such nature to experience the Ultimate Pain that you cannot put it in words. But I guess someone had to do it. And it can only happen when you are someBODY as only when you become nothing and not anybody anymore, can you experience the Ultimate feeling of Good. So you have to ascend from yourself. Loving yourself only lead to the Ultimate Pain of Nothingness part opposites. Only if you give up the self love or love in general, when you are stuck between all that has made you a prisoner without being a prisoner, then you can become to experience the Ultimate Pain. You feel so lost as you cannot even escape yourself. And you come to such point that you even give up wanting to do that. YOU JUST GIVE UP!!!!! All that you are: PAIN, GUILT, LOST, LONELY, STUCK. And the worst: No way out!

The religious group, the Christians, speak of a hell. I feel sorry for those who must go there. If I feel like this – it must be quite the same feeling in essence. My only prayer is that God never send anybody to hell!!!

I am here now, what I have done to be here, I do not know. But while I am here I can only pray to be the only one to be here forever – and let nobody else ever land here. Even though I am forsaken, I just pray that nobody end up feeling like this ever!!!!!!! Please God, take this away in order for nobody to ever have to land in this situation ever again!!!!!!!!
Someone is here now, so let the others just go to the Good.

Renee/Aslan

But this was JOHN30 and this is JOHN31 and 30 and 31 gives 61. My link to Lore and Linda. But 1 + 6 = 7 and 6 + 1 = 7. And 7 + 7 = 14. And 14 is my link to my Dog, whom I lost, but where the Dog and its inverse, namely DOGOD, gives the 1441. And JOHN30 was the build up to 14/2/2009 that culminated in those words as expression of how I was feeling as a cause of the all that lead to 14/2/2009. But 14/2 is also the 14 11, the one that is linked to my accident on 22/11. But I guess I can carry on with the links as much as I like, but what is the purpose of JOHN31 (which is totally linked to 14), is that this bring into Balance the feeling of ULTIMATE BAD being Good or having in its essence still Good. And JOHN31 is linked to 14, which give the 31 14 or Zep Tepi. My link to Linda also. Again, links and links. But in it all it stay Linda and Lore. The “Lady’s of the Lake”.
Renee
15/02/2009 1:20PM or 12, the number of Fulfillment.

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JOHN29

11/02/2009 10:58am turning 10:59AM where we have from the hour a 10 and 10 or a 11 and from the Last Minutes we have a 59 or then a 5 + 9 = 14, which gives the 11 14 combination which is linked to my accident rolling my vehicle on 22/11 in 2008. But we also have from both minutes a 13 and 14, the number combination in some way of Zep Tepi. But today is 11/2/29 or 11/11/11. (South African Time)

Dear John

What I understand of my work is the following. It all started when I received the mathematical proof that 1 = -1 or then, that in mathematics, where we have always thought that a + times a – equal a -, it actually then equal a +. But that was the beginning of greater thoughts regarding what is behind our whole “Bigger Picture”.

We can manifest. But for all the words, which in themselves are energies (just like you and me) and for all concepts, which in themselves are energies (just like you and me), for it all to reach its full potential, we have to be able to manifest. And to be able to manifest we have to have the Quantum Physical principle. But the Quantum Physical principle as you know are derived from the science that comes from the principle of atoms and on a certain level that the atom is of such nature that: “the observer influence the observed”. That is where the Quantum Principle come from. But atoms have an origin as well and would not have had an origin if it was not “proven” by way of mathematics – where I have proofed with the 1 = -1 or then the (+) and (-) thing that our mathematics are actually not accurate.

But not only did this 1 = -1 show me that our mathematics (and therefore everything derived from it) was inaccurate, but it also showed me when I started discovering certain life situations, that the world of opposites as mankind know it, that world of duality which is believed to exist, is actually ONLY a state of mind. And because we still have the Quantum principle I was able to “create” in my writings that these so called opposites only seems like opposites, but they are actually not.

Then my task went further and I started bringing these so called opposites into a space of Balance which I call The Point of Balance where it is noted in my work as follow: [0;0]. That is for each and every opposite which is believed to exist which I am proving in my work is not a [1;-1], but a [0;0], where I actually bring it into the Devine Balance.

But the only way the “energies”, of whatever sort they are, could come to their full potential if was if our Creator created for us the path where we would eventually be able to manifest, not only for everything to come into its full potential, but also so that we could be able to manifest it back into its balance again. And that is necessary to bring those “opposites” back into their true balance again as in that way we are bringing the NOTHINGNESS (for me the Ultimate God – not the Feminine Devine that are doing the Creating work) back into Balance – as you can see, I bring the energies and the potentials to The Point of Balance, namely the Point [0;0]. And what else is 0 than Nothing. And that is what I am “creating” or manifesting in my work! To bring the Ultimate God into its place of Balance again. And you would not believe how awesome this state of mind of opposites can confuse man. I have examples in my work to show this. But of course my work hold in that both Einstein and Newton was “wrong”, but it was a “wrong” that was “right”. As if they did not come up with the ideas and the mathematics, we would not have been able to manifest and everything as we know it is not able to come to its full potential in this day and age. And this is what is causing the “what is believed”, chaos certain people are witnessing and experiencing. It is not spiraling down energy, it is actually every energy coming to its full potential, even the energy that exists because the word exist, namely the energy or word “opposites/duality”. And even the energy “chaos” has got to come to its full potential for The Ultimate God to come to Its full potential. And if you read my work you would see how the one is influencing the other for each and everyone/thing to come to their full potential – not just the energy form called man. But this does not make it now easy to understand, as the word/energy “complex” must also reach its full potential and in the process get put into its Point of Balance, the Point [0;0]. Now can you see why I think people do not understand what I am writing about or the levels it go to? As for Ascension to take place, not only does the energy “man” reach its full potential, but EVERY other thing that exists too, as ALL is some form of energy and all must reach its full potential for ALL to Ascend.

I do not know if you can follow what I am trying to say here. But these proofs to this are on my blogsite called:
ava414.wordpress.com
The most interesting parts I would say is all the Pages which you will find on the right side of the page when you land on the site. There is a department called “Pages” and under these “Pages”, is listed for one the proof that 1 = -1. This is under the heading: “THE BALANCE”.
Another important heading is: “Between The Desert and The Deap Blue Sea” as well as “Transforming Prism – an ILLUSION”. But actually all those pages contain the most essential works.
So in all of those “posts”, I have been busy with a “manifesting/creating” process.

With the above said in mind, I hope the pieces written now makes more sense…..
KIND REGARDS
11/02/2009 11:06am or 11 11 11 11 which all together adds up to 44, the Hebrew Name of God that in Gamatria works out on 44 that means: “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”. And 6, which is the upside down of 9, the number where it ALL comes Together.
Renee
11:09AM (South African Time)

My DOG

Dedication to Charlie, my CHIhuahua DOG. This photograph to show how hard he is working/was working to always be there for me and telling me that.

And what is so interesting is that there is a volcano which erupted at the same time my DOG had to cross over – the volcano in the South of “CHI”li, and it spit out ashes into the air for 30 kilometers into the air the day before my “CHI”huahua died. And it was not just all fire (volcano – or ashes as everything will come to ashes again), it was also the water thing – the cyclone in Mianmar which took nearly 100 000 people’s lives. There was also a huge earthquake in "CHI"na which registrated 7.8 on the scale. This quake happened 10km beneath the earth. Then there are hundreds without homes with tornado's/twisters hitting America and they are still not over.
So my Dog’s death went along with huge spectacles.

REGARDSava414 - Charlie and myself together as One, ava414.